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[Sep. 28th, 2006|07:44 am] |
I could listen to Sufjan Stevens' "Chicago" over and over again.
grant |
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[Sep. 17th, 2006|06:27 pm] |
What the waters wants is hurricanes
And sailboats to ride on its back
What the water wants is sun kiss
And land to run into and back
I have a fish stone burning my elbow
Reminding me to know that I'm glad
That I have a bottle filled with my own teeth
They fell out like a tear in the bag
And I have a sister somewhere in Detroit
She has black hair and small hands
And I have a kettle drum
I'll hit the earth with you
And I will crochet you a hat
And I have a red kite
I'll put you right in it
I'll show you the sky
"sister"-sufjan stevens |
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| There is no good title |
[Aug. 24th, 2006|10:58 pm] |
I have been prolonging this for awhile. There were many times I could have sat down and written out a good journal entry, one that explained everything: people, places, issues, and some trash talking. But I think its time to move on from the families and interns I was with. There is no reason to say bad things about them anymore. Sure, it was crazy. It was wild. I was challenged on a daily basis, frustrated constantly and in one song I wrote at the beginning, “I was pissed off at the commune” If you want to know what happened, come see me and I’ll tell you.
But looking back, I can say it was good and it was bad. It opened some doors I had already closed. It made me realize I am a people person (after the first month being the only intern, making small talk with cats on a daily basis). I realized I am privelaged and my eyes were opened to it this summer. I am fortunate to have two loving parents who until 4 months ago I had seriously thought about erasing from my future and now realize they must always have a presence. I am lucky to have friends who sent me tons of letters, e-mails, facebook messages, and phone calls. I am fortunate to have everyone of you in my life (even if it brings problems).
I got completely isolated this summer.8-4 workdays in the fields, then all night with no electricity. Just 18 books, and packs of paper. I went away to see if I could dosomething like the Peace Corps or even just move away by myself after college. I can say that this was the smartest idea I ever made. I love Montana. I loved Ravalli County, the Bitterroot Valley, and Missoula but the south is one amazing place. Home is a wonderful place, and I realize I cant be too far from friends/family. I’ve thought about going up north for grad school and now may look closer to home (of course in a big city).
But what I can say and what I learned from this is that you need to take a small step before we are pushed out into the real world. Do some soul searchng. Get away from the comfort zone, and listen to what your heart is saying. Pray a lot. Write your goals. Scratch out your goals. Do not take any of the individuals you encounter for granted. Take a chance before its too late. Do not set limits. Live without regrets.
It may be painful, and it was the HARDEST thing I’ve ever done, and the best thing I could ever do at this time. You must take risks or you may never get the most you can get out of life.
Thank you all
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| Last Blog of the Summer |
[May. 30th, 2006|02:32 pm] |
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Last Blog for the Summer
So I write this on the eve of my great journey out west. Am I excited? Yes. Hell Yes. But Im beyond scared, beyond frightened. For some reason all these bad feelings have been floating in and out. Im trying to ignore them. The internship is going to be amazing. The experience is gonna alter my world completely. Im gonna come back to school with a thick, black beard (hopefully it will be thick), pages and pages of journaling/songs, 13 books read (its a lofty goal but what else where there be to do), a dark tan, hands shaped by my work, a loss of weight, and a better understanding of who I am, where I am going, who I am becoming, and who I want to be. I cannot wait for this.
We leave tomorrow morning and plan to get outside of St. Louis. Its going to be a long day. I hope that my father gets alot out of this. He hasnt seen much of the country, and this may be the only time he ever will. I think this will be good for him. I hope it is good for him. I am somewhat looking forward to getting lost, having bad stuff happen. Its all a part of the journey. The person I used to be may be different next fall. We'll just have to see.
So I wish you all the best this summer. I hope you find what you are looking for. You become who you want to be. You do good ultimately.
10 weeks in rural Montana on a commune/eco-village as an organic garden intern. I would have never seen this opportunity ever. Never thought I'd be doing this.
Grant
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| Boiling Point |
[Apr. 23rd, 2006|06:12 pm] |
Dear whoever this may apply to that is currently a student at Maryville College...scratch that. A student at any public institution,
Im sure you are coming to the end of your semester and at this time we are all on edge. Therefore, we need to remember that we are stressed, we are scared, we want our own f&^%ing room, and that of course the small things and the big things are going to worry us these last remainng days which means we are at the beginning or in the middle of ongoing fights and disputes.
THEREFORE, I pledge to you that I am:
-not going to start any type of verbal fight
-try to abstain from spreading viscious rumors.
-not going to argue with someone for the sake of argueing
I AM:
-going to value my friends whether or not we got into fights weeks ago, are no longer speaking, are having disputes that are lasting months and months because there is no reason to continue to bring it up over and over again and rehashing and regurgiating the same words, the same causes, and the same beliefs.
-going to laugh and take a break once in a while.
-hang out with people who are NOT STARTING DRAMA.
- when I get upset and frustrated, I am not going to take this out on the people around me or disguise it as it being problems from the beginning of the semester.
I hope we all can value what we currently have and realize that we will be in different worlds these next years. Friendships will be altered next year, people are living all over different part of campus next year which means the only contact may be at lunch/dinner or in some other form. I hope that we all can calm down, get over stupid shit, and f*&^ing grow up. Im gonna try and I hope you all can try.Whats past is past.And if we for some reason believe we are 20 and dont act like the freshman, then maybe it is time to assume this role...because from where I've been standing we have yet to assume it.
"It is Finished"- Aslan,CofN:LWW
Good Night and Good Luck,
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| Here it comes |
[Jan. 11th, 2006|03:10 pm] |
So I probably had the best birthday every yesterday. Had one hour of class, worked out and played raquetball, then Megan took me out to P.F. Chang's then to ice cream. Came back and hung out and watched a movie with Rachael, Katie, Patricia, Michael, Andrew, and April. It was a very good day. Thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday.
I love J-Term.
Today is day three of the semi-diet. I've cut out all sodas or drinks with sugar, limited carbohydrates, and mostly just tried to eat mostly vegetables and fruit. I wish getting in shape was not just a slow process but one that you would see the results after a day of.
Monday, I did Yoga and at the end of it is meditation. The instructor turns the lights off and you meditate and think about everything. I fell asleep. It was not until 10 mins later when she had turn the lights off and Matt got up from his mat and walked to me that I woke up.
G;Day- Grant |
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| Off to San Diego |
[Jan. 3rd, 2006|10:40 am] |
From Beulah's "Gene Autry"
When I get to California,
Gonna write my name in the sand
I'm gonna lay this body down
and watch the waves roll in
and when the city spreads out
just like a cut vein
Everybody drowns, sad and lonely
well everybody drowns, sad and lonely
well everybody drowns, sad and lonely, alright
Sweet dreams and color and sound
Highways in the fog waiting to be found
I'll start gold mines in the sky sky sky
They were clouds just waiting to cry
I'll see ya all on sunday.
G;Day- Grant |
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| As P.C. as you can get... |
[Dec. 24th, 2005|01:59 pm] |
... HAPPY FESTIVUS!!
"A Festivus for the rest of us!"
Frank Costanza: Many Christmases ago, I went to buy a doll for my son. I reached for the last one they had, but so did another man. As I rained blows upon him, I realized there had to be another way.
Cosmo Kramer: What happened to the doll?
Frank Costanza: It was destroyed. But out of that a new holiday was born . . . a Festivus for the rest of us!
Cosmo Kramer: That must've been some kind of doll.
Frank Costanza: She was.
The Festivus celebration includes four major components:
The Festivus Pole: The Costanzas' tradition begins with an aluminum pole, which Frank praises for its "very high strength-to-weight ratio." During Festivus, the unadorned pole is displayed. The pole was chosen apparently in opposition to the commercialization of highly decorated Christmas trees, because it is "very low-maintenance," and also because the holiday's patron, Frank Costanza, "find[s] tinsel distracting."
Festivus Dinner: The Festivus dinner menu is flexible, but it should consist of filling, non-holiday comfort food (no turkey, duck, or goose). The televised dinner featured what may have been meatloaf or spaghetti in a red sauce. (Presumably, an entree in a red sauce is more festive.) Kruger (George's Boss) took a flask out from his jacket and took a swig; so one might interpret that drinking is optional. In the Festivus book by Allen Salkin, drinking is encouraged with hearty beer, cheap rum, bourbon, or wine.
The Airing of Grievances: At the Festivus dinner, each participant tells friends and family of all the instances where they disappointed him or her that year.
Frank Costanza: "I've got a lot of problems with you people, and now you're going to hear about them!"
The Feats of Strength: The head of the family tests his or her strength against one participant of the head's choosing. Festivus is not considered over until the head of the family has been pinned to the ground. A participant is allowed to decline to attempt to pin the head of the family only if they have something better to do instead.
From Wikipedia
The grades
Intro to Art/Martin A+
Soc of Edu/Simpson A
Perspectives on the social Order/Shiba A
Bib Studies/Cowan B- (Considering where I was at the first of the semster, I am very grateful for this grade)
Principles of Manangement/Treadway B+
I have quit the Banana. My last day is tuesday.
I hope you all get what you want from Santa
G;Day-Grant |
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| Sheree O'Connor |
[Dec. 20th, 2005|01:07 pm] |
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As some of you may know, two weeks ago, Katie Warner and I finally met Sheree O'Connor. She lives on the third floor of bartlett in the office on the left side of Kirsten Shepard.
Well considering that I felt this was a life altering moment, I felt that as anyone does in these situations now to make a face book group. But what happens?? THERES ALREADY A FACEBOOK GROUP!!
Not only that. The creator, Lindsay Beene, notes that Sheree might be a robot. This is a theory I concocted.
I guess I shouldnt be reacting this way. But come on! These Freshmen are getting out of control with their facebook group creations. Seriously....maybe I need to go make a facebook group concerning this rampant situation.
G;Day- Grant |
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| Final Days |
[Dec. 9th, 2005|10:21 am] |
Last night, a group of us went and saw The LIon, the witch and the wardrobe. It was amazing. Utterly amazing. I cant wait to see it a couple more times. Man, it was just so goooodd.
Well I've got to put this laptop away, and get cracking on finals.
Good Luck to everyone. Have a safe break.
G;Day- Grant |
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